And So Time Has Passed…..

…and you think that I have been able to get through some of my list, right?  Yea wrong.  Life has a way of making twists and turns for you to uproot your nice laid plans.

I ordered a new bed for me, yay!  I went to get my hair done, yay!  I come out from getting my hair done and my car won’t start.  Shit.  I could go into many details about it, but then a 1/2 hour late you’d be like, “what were we talking about again?”.  So needless to say, 3 weeks later and $3K later, my car is finally fixed.  Sigh…..  

We have settled into somewhat of a routine, so that’s good, however, part of me gets frustrated that I AM still doing it all on my own.  I know that with school out right now, it’s harder to find that “me” time to get things done, but it’s just something that we’ll just have to get adjusted to.

I could go into details about all the CRAP that has been going on and that he has tried to pull, etc., but I need to learn to let it go.  I need to still learn to be strong and be me.  I have come a LONG way in that regard and sometimes it’s hard to not fall back into the old habits that I had become so accustomed to.

One friend told me that it was unfair what had transpired.  I guess you could look at it that way, however with events like this, I don’t necessarily see it as unfair, I see it as moving on.  The one thing (well, okay maybe there is more than one) that I consider unfair was my mom dying 5 1/2 years ago.  Now THAT was unfair.   You think you get to a point where you are past it and then things like this happen and it just makes me want her even more to be here.

So now I have a few things in the works.   One of them is photography.  It has always been one of my loves and passions.   And I’m looking into an opportunity to help me to earn some extra income.  And there is a lens that a friend highly recommended to me:

Oh, how I want this lens.  And I think it would be extremely good for my photography.  I’m just hesitant on purchasing it, only because the last time I did something for myself (i.e. last month), I ended up having unexpected expenses happen (i.e. my car), and I really have to stay on a budget and make the $$ stretch.  So I’m giving myself 24 – 48 hours to think this over, to determine if I should purchase it or not.  I mean, even if I get ONE client, I can write it off on my taxes,  so there’s a good incentive to get it, right?

Hmmmm…………………………what would YOU do??

Thus the reason for the blog title

“Bite Me”

That has been my trademark saying for years.  Ask my friends, they’ll tell you.

I even had a custom necklace made by my wonderful friend Stacy, as you can see in the image above.

I had another friend, make me a display saying that says “Bite Me”

So this is who I am.

You don’t like it?

You can BITE ME. (insert a very cheesy ass sarcastic grin)

I’m doing things on my own now.

I have friends.

I’m putting the word out there that if they know of anyone getting rid of this or that, give me a call, I may want it.

You got extra paint?  I need neutral colors.  A friend of mine told me she has 3 gallons of a neutral color I can have.

My neighbor?  We saw him weed whacking the edge of the lawn for me this evening and I didn’t even ask him to do it!  (I’m going to have to leave him some cookies as a thank you)

I have a friend who’s going to have his employees fix my back fence for me all I have to do is pay for the lumber.

OMG, I am SOOOOO friggin grateful to ALL of my friends and family, for just being there for me.  For helping me get through this.  To support me, even just by listening to me vent or give me the encouragement to know that I can do this.

I truly do love you all.

Of course there is one person who is missing in all of this.

My mom.  How I do miss her.

I talked with my sister last night about this and how it’s just not the same anymore.  Yes, we go about our daily lives and all, but when events happen in our lives and she’s not there, we truly miss her.  We miss the love and support she gave us.  Yes, other friends and family can be there for us, but it’s not the same.  It never will be.  And that’s not to say anything bad against our friends and family, it’s just different.  And only my sisters would know what I mean.

Well, not fully yet….

…..but it’s a start.

I’m starting a new chapter in my life.  One where I’m taking control of me and my destiny.

It’s going to be a long hard road, but I know I can do it.  I have the support of my family and friends and with the help of my therapist, the confidence to guide me through it.

Life, as I’ve seen it in the past will not be the same, I think.

So many plans, so many ideas, I need to write them down.

So here’s my “honey do” list for ME.

• Empty out the other sides of the closets
• Purge the hall closet
• Purge the bedrooms
• Purge the craft/scrapbook/computer room
• Purge the kitchen & dining room
• Put the elliptical on Craigslist
• Go through the shed and purge that
• Organize the closets, under the bathroom sinks, china cabinet, etc.
• Have a garage sale
• Landscape the back and front yards
• Get the fence fixed
• Do a Spring/Summer cleaning
• Re-open my etsy store
• Take some of my photos and open up my 2nd etsy store
• Get in shape
• Paint the living room/hallway/kitchen
• Frame the mirror in the living room
• Replace the mantle
• Get new curtains

Okay, wow, I think I need to stop for now, that is going to take me a VERY long time to do all of this!  I think I’m going to have to have my children help me on some of this, LOL!!

One day at a time.

Baby steps.

Now that I’ve got list done of what I want to get done, I just need to start doing it.  One day at a time, try and do something to get that list going.

But I will do it.

I come from a long line of strong women, and I know I have it in my blood to do it as well.